Do you ever feel like you live a blended life, thinking and feeling one way when you're alone, and quite differently when you're with others? Do you ever wish that the heightened spirituality you feel at church, in meditation, in nature, or while reading inspirational literature, would remain with you in all the situations you encounter?

Sometimes we feel oneness with God that feels so right and so beautiful in the moment, that we know, absolutely know, in that moment - this is who we truly are!  We're not all the roles and facades that we and others attribute to us.  We know we are a wave in the ocean of consciousness which we call God.  But alas, when we find ourselves in situations where we feel ill at ease, or guarded, or in circumstances which are repeatedly troublesome for us, the person we know ourselves to be in our private time is sometimes taken over by the one we used to be before we knew our truth.  It can be disappointing and disconcerting when we fall back into our unenlightened selves in action and word, whether it be negative talk at a party, yelling at our kids, boasting, over-consuming, or whatever human foible happens to be our particular variety.

The deeper we go on our spiritual paths, the greater the yearning for spiritual integrity.  We long to be our highest selves all the time, in all of our roles.  When we just plain forget to remember who we truly are, it hurts.  Why do we spiritual beings fall asleep so easily?  Why can't we remember, every moment, every second, that we are gods!  We are Consciousness, we are the One Consciousness expressing itself as us. That's big!  How can we ever let that slip our minds in the activity of our lives?

A host of books and spiritual teachers can explain why from a host of perspectives, but the bottom line is.  It Doesn't Matter.  It doesn't matter one bit how many times we forget our glory, it only matters how many times we try again to live from our highest consciousness.  Living from our highest consciousness means immediate forgiveness of the action or word we just did or said that made us uncomfortable, and immediate reaching for the thought that pulls us back up.  Thus our spiritual integrity is created and strengthened, and over time we find ourselves staying truer to ourselves.